Race, dammit.
Yes, I haven't been posting. I haven't been sleeping either. I haven't been doing much of catching up with my life.. I've simply been running to and fro doing what needs to be done without thinking.
But oh the consequences of that.
Running around like a damn rat in a race leaves me cynical, tired, cranky, sleepy, rude and worst of all, braindead. The common phrase in the army goes "shag cannot think". You get so tired, your brain functions stop. What happens next is 5 weeks past by and you have no idea what happened. It all goes on auto-pilot which is dangerous... talking, reacting, working without thinking probably turns people off at the least and I don't know what at the worst. I think I've pissed off more than enough people the last few weeks, most of them friends. Really sorry guys.. I'm going to work at this.
There's been an entire onslaught of stuff. Performing at the Official Opening, performing at the MLCC Book Launch, technical 2ic for Patron's Day, marketing and all sorts for the SISS bash, the occasional performances and the jamming sessions to prepare for them, the whole restructuring of the Studio Committee, the preparation for the 3rd March Rock Concert.. on top of some quite heavy modules this term. I'm currently now in school, on the Sunday before the "break" week.. preparing for Company Law midterms and presentation. I have 4 mid-terms. None of which I am currently prepared for. The pressure is tremendous, thus blogging when I should really be mugging.
Honestly, time is running so much faster now. I wonder if its the lifestyle we choose to lead or if there is a definite acceleration in the expansion of the space-time continuum that leads to this feeling of time speeding up. Or maybe both. If time has a consciousness, I hope it's not rushing forward mindlessly like I am. The consequences of that...
But oh the consequences of that.
Running around like a damn rat in a race leaves me cynical, tired, cranky, sleepy, rude and worst of all, braindead. The common phrase in the army goes "shag cannot think". You get so tired, your brain functions stop. What happens next is 5 weeks past by and you have no idea what happened. It all goes on auto-pilot which is dangerous... talking, reacting, working without thinking probably turns people off at the least and I don't know what at the worst. I think I've pissed off more than enough people the last few weeks, most of them friends. Really sorry guys.. I'm going to work at this.
There's been an entire onslaught of stuff. Performing at the Official Opening, performing at the MLCC Book Launch, technical 2ic for Patron's Day, marketing and all sorts for the SISS bash, the occasional performances and the jamming sessions to prepare for them, the whole restructuring of the Studio Committee, the preparation for the 3rd March Rock Concert.. on top of some quite heavy modules this term. I'm currently now in school, on the Sunday before the "break" week.. preparing for Company Law midterms and presentation. I have 4 mid-terms. None of which I am currently prepared for. The pressure is tremendous, thus blogging when I should really be mugging.
Honestly, time is running so much faster now. I wonder if its the lifestyle we choose to lead or if there is a definite acceleration in the expansion of the space-time continuum that leads to this feeling of time speeding up. Or maybe both. If time has a consciousness, I hope it's not rushing forward mindlessly like I am. The consequences of that...
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