Distractio....

I've been quite distracted these days. 3 things keeping me away from my books.



1. Programming! Yes, I am currently quite enthralled with this new framework and programming language, Ruby on Rails. This may sound entirely geeky but, honestly, Ruby on Rails makes me wanna take a dive into the deep end of the programming pool. It automates a lot of tedious stuff. The programming is clear and makes sense. Good god, it's solid stuff. I'm going to pick it up over the summer.

2. Girls? There are always girls I am attracted to around so its not a new distraction. I have gone out but I haven't really been pursuing. I don't know. I don't make a conscious effort to stay single. I just figure that being with someone should ultimately be a deliberate decision based honestly on communication, attraction and chemistry while not be in a position where it's all lust (or we say its not but it actually really is just lust). Sometimes, someone comes along with that right combination and fits. Sometimes they don't. Not everyone fits.. and I guess you'll never know till you try.

I realize that any girls I may be interested in pursuing would most probably get turned off by the massive amounts of geekiness emanating from the first paragraph. I'm going to prove the world wrong! Programming IS Sexy!

Er yeah.. support me here guys....

disclaimer: this paragraph was initially titled puberty. i couldn't think of any other appropriate word starting with p.

3. Performances. I performed with Seven Till Dawn for the SMU Grand Opening, we also had the Face Off Concert and a performance at Timbre and at the ACF Investiture.. tomorrow I'm going to be playing again.. for the Buckets at Starry Night 3. But this time not just drums but bass! I suck at it and I can't sing backup for nuts but screw all that.. Punkrock!

okay actually not really punkrock. I think some of my friends are going to kill me when they know I'll be playing Fall Out Boy and Yellowcard. Oh how the mighty have fallen.

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Argh! Exams in less than two weeks!!! Mug dammit mug!

Okay maybe after tomorrow's show.

Do the 10 minute Zombie Wipe Out!

Are there zombies in your neighbourhood and/or around the vicinity of your home? Do the zombie wipe out and check for zombies under the large pots in your garden, in the cellar, on the roof and under your sink.

If you find a zombie, remember to hit them in the head. See picture.



Remember to decapitate any still-lying corpses in the vicinity of your own home. Place heavy boulders over any freshly-dug graves - remember dirt isn't enough. Any family and friends who have been infected and display zombie-like behaviors (e.g. gnawing on the family cat) must be swiftly dispatched with.

Again, if you find a zombie, remember to hit them in the head. See picture.



Do the 10 minutes Zombie Wipe Out today and ensure the safety of your own home.

This message has been brought to you by the Ministry of Health. Probably.

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Please seek expert help if surrounded. Contact the ZOMBAT Command (Anti-Zombie Force) at www.zombatcommand.com

rambles rhymes with marbles. bles.

Hello.

The slight fever/flu/sore throat the last three weeks finally reared its ugly head and sank its filthy fangs into the tender flesh of my health. (drama sia..)

In other words, I fell really sick the last three days. I went to the doctor after my Company Law presentation and this was what he said to me

"que sera sera"

heh. okay maybe not that but he did say

"okay i have some bad news. fevers usually don't last till three weeks, as you would know. it could be symptoms of something bigger. anything from Hepatitis B to HIV.."

me: "okay, i think i'm positively sure i don't have HIV." (i mean gee.. no way!)

doctor: ".. so I'm going to give you some medication and in three days come back to me. if you're still like that, gotta send you for full blood test. might need to hospitalize"

me: "i can't get hospitalized, i have a lot of work to do"

doctor: "no choice. just go get at least 8 hours rest a night"

me: "hey, if i can get 8 hours rest a night...."

doctor: "no choice, you want MC?"

me: "eh no need."

okay, so i've been resting at home and skipping classes. luckily my project group mates are accomdating (i still spent 3 hours on a project report which managed to get really good comments from the prof) and most of the classes can be made up on Friday.

thing about me and fevers.. i get really vivid dreams. and there was this dream i had about my ex-girlfriend. i don't usually dream of her but this one felt real. we weren't together in the dream, we were friends in the same apartment. i just remember waking up thinking that she was right and that i was quite the thwat thinking what i thought was the right thing to do back then at pacific coffee. hooray for stupid life mistakes. ah well.

Hello. You still reading? Good on ya. Not very interesting post this one, is it?

I did get my ass to school today, to catch up on some work. Met Haida at the benches of the SIS building and had dinner with her at Burger King Peninsula Plaza, which she didn't know existed. Then went to the Up Close and Personal session with Chris Ho. Interesting guy, amazingly wide knowledge of great artistes and songs. He gave me a CD. Blue by Joni Mitchell, I think it is. We had to draw lots among the fifteen of us there to get the CD and I got it. the jedi mindtricks really come in handy.

i should be sleeping but I think i've been oversleeping the last few days. i've either been sleeping or thinking. thinking about the kind of person i am today and how for some strange reason, it's a little different from the person i knew coming into SMU. prouder, more cynical. more inhibitions. less fun. i guess i could always think up and pinpoint the things in my life i could blame for turning me into this but that's hardly any point in that is it. i'm not going to let it get me so from today onwards i am going to

a. be more humble and give more respect to others (sorely lacking in this area, i am)
b. lower my inhibitions, reach out more and spend more time with family and friends

it's only human to be flawed, i guess the best we can do is to look at ourselves in the mirror every other day and try to make a change for the better.

and no, this isn't the fever talking. just the result of having some time to self-reflect.

Mind your head.

I had a little scare in my room a few days ago. I had just woken up from another 2/3 hour of sleep night and in the darkness of the morning, I peered into a mirror and I saw this horrid looking zombie-like creature at the side of it.

Fortunately or unfortunately, when I peered harder, I realized the monster was me.

I looked like a zombie and I positively felt like one too, except I didn't have the appetite for human brains. Okay, maybe a nibble on human ears would be okay. But thats not the point. I was a zombie, a member of the army of the living dead. With a company law exam in four hours.

I lurched to school. I didn't really bite anyone on the way cuz everyone I met on the way was a fellow zombie too and I remembered that zombies don't bite other zombies. It wasn't polite. I started to think of how I could differentiate the living from the living dead. I peered out of the bus window... it wasn't easy. At 800am in the morning, everyone had

a. lifeless, glassy eyes
b. broken posture/gait
c. a slight moan/groan when prodded

..yup, definitely zombies. It was really amazing to me that nobody seemed to be affected by this. Here we are, all fellow zombies lurching away and nobody made a hoot about it all or how it all started or when we all started turning into the living dead. Maybe they all had also woken up one morning and peered into the mirror like I did and realized, "oh hello.. i'm a zombie. right, gotta get to work.."

So I hit SMU expecting to see some form of life. Hah. If you have ever seen a zombie movie, you would have at least watched a scene where a whole crowd of zombies are shambling their way towards something and pawing at it. For another remake of such a scene, come down to the security gantries at the SMU Business School lobby at 830am.

I finished the company law exam with my zombie noggin thankfully still intact. I shambled to a little corner of the admin building and buried myself. and then I watched "Shaun of the Dead" on my computer. Quite a romantic comedy. This was immediately followed by another viewing of "Dawn of the Dead", I swear I think I can start to memorize the lines in that movie. I downloaded a demo version of Stubbs the Zombie, which is a pretty cool game where you get to play the zombie and infect people instead of the usual blast-the-zombie game. Pro-Zombie, I like.

So, I thought so okay, I had a short spell of zombie obsession and the only thing zombie about my life are the movies and games.

unfortunately, not.

I started to look into this whole zombie thing and how that seems to tie in a lot with what I see around me. There's a whole philosophy behind zombies. Going behind the idea of consciousness and physicality. Honestly, it is really difficult to look at all the people lurching around everyday and not think "zombies". Are they conscious and thinking? I read on how people have taken to this and infused it into the way they see their daily lives and made it a formula for success.. Even when I'm studying, I stumbled upon a ZOMBIE programming language and zombie networks.

You say that a zombie invasion will never happen? I say it's already over. Get ready to supersize a McBrain meal soon, you zombie.